A whole year and 2,303 posts ago, I made this tumblr. I didn’t think I’d have it for so long, but lookie its still here, full of random posts and thingies!
I have to say, I’m not quite sure what to make of it and I’m still not sure what I’m going to do with ma tumblr except keep tumblring. Here’s to another year of tumblr woot!

A whole year and 2,303 posts ago, I made this tumblr. I didn’t think I’d have it for so long, but lookie its still here, full of random posts and thingies!

I have to say, I’m not quite sure what to make of it and I’m still not sure what I’m going to do with ma tumblr except keep tumblring. Here’s to another year of tumblr woot!

Lost in artificial reality.

I was going to rant about the disconnection between people I know and myself. Recently, state of emergency or no, I think i’ve become pretty disinterested or disconnected with people I actually know compared to things I see online. And then at another point, I’ve become disinterested in that and distant from that too.

At the moment, I’m at a loss at what exactly I’ve been up to. I mean, there are things that I’m busy doing, but I can’t remember when the change happened, when I suddenly realize I’m waking up to just move through the day like a ghost. So that when I try to remember what I did today, I can’t. It’s very disconcerting.

I conclude I’ve become lazy or simply bored. Or maybe I just can’t quite concentrate and put in the effort. Unfocused. I can’t describe with certainty what I am feeling.

So I’m at this point where I’ve decided I should work out what that means and then change that. For surely, I can’t just want to be what I am right now. So i’m trying to remember what I wanted. 

I think, a lot of us get lost like this. We get busy doing whatever we’re doing and start to forget the original point and purpose for doing it. Then we might just see something one day that reminds us what that was. It’s at that point you ask yourself the question, is this what I really want? The thing that I did want, do I still want it now? What do i do now, go back, continue or change?

I’ll continue working at those questions. Try to break the little artificial reality I’m currently residing in and see if I can discover a new one. 

My Issue with Nerdfighteria and The Reality of This World.

As i am from Trinidad I can say we don’t have riots down here, but the crime is blatant. And I will say this, I think he has a good point. I don’t know about first world countries- but I know that there is an undercurrent of unease and disconnection between the young people of this world and the people ruling the world. The banks. The corporations. The politicians. The people making it so much harder for young people to survive the way they’ve been taught to survive. Be good in school and in college and you’re obviously going to do well and succeed, get a job and have a family. When it’s so difficult to do that and Young people are suffering.

I don’t think it is a surprise for them to act out. There’s a breaking point when people who aren’t happy, who are constantly struggling, whose voices aren’t being heard because they don’t know how to communicate because they are the ones that the schools disregard- they are the ones who will break out consumed by fear and fury for being ignored in the only way they know how- violently. How do you expect them to react otherwise? All they’ve known is survival, not by knowledge but by struggle. How do they do communicate when they’ve never learned how? And How do people listen if they’ve never listened before?

Now, I am not from that selection of people and there’s a set of young people who aren’t. But we who aren’t should be helping those who can’t right? It’s good that we can elevate above that and still be happy- but we shouldn’t ignore the obvious pain that these people rioting are feeling. Instead of just calling them idiots, ask why would they feel the need to do that? There is real suffering even in the first world- and not just because they can’t get their hands on a new game, but being subjected to inequality.

I sit here in a country of paradise and watch as the world destroys itself, with greed and ignorance and blindness. I am part of the problem and a victim. All of us young people are. We either can’t see beyond our struggles or we can’t see the ones that do and not see what the heart of the problem is.

I ask you this, Hank Green and John Green. I enjoy watching your videos. I am a Nerdfighter and proud. But when you both start talking about these issues against Hacking, or patriotism- that’s when I can’t watch your videos. Because I can’t share your enthusiasm of stopping hackers from trying to talk out in what way they think they can. Or why you’re so confused about the London riots. Or why you think when someone acts out, its because they’re being idiots. True, I get absolutely disgusted when I see an idiot, but I can’t help but pity them for not being able to see or do anything different.

This why I ask you, sincerely, to look at what you’re saying outside of the happy nerdfighter bubble and, I know its difficult because that’s bubble you view reality through, try to see the strife that these people are trying to say they’re dealing with. Take this video and ask yourself why the world is in uprising. Why riots and anonymous are doing what they’re doing, and not just think that they are simply being idiots ruining the order laid down by the first world.

Sincerely, A Nerdfighter from Trinidad
Claire.
Aryxa- the artifical reality you experience at nauseum. We all live in our own reality bubbles.

ps.you guys are still awesome.

Introducing Aryxa and Paradona.
They’re those two little doodle girls i mentioned and how they work. It’s really what defined their characters anyway. I only started doodling them last month so, don’t know anything else about their little world.
Making it up as you go along FTW!!

Introducing Aryxa and Paradona.

They’re those two little doodle girls i mentioned and how they work. It’s really what defined their characters anyway. I only started doodling them last month so, don’t know anything else about their little world.

Making it up as you go along FTW!!

Oh yeah, the little girl I was talking about, Aryxa? She’s the happy one on the rocks in this drawing. The other one is Paradona. They’re the same girl.
Aryxa : pretty curious, happy and naive
Paradona: a lunatic, emo with a short temper.
I’d started to draw them just as decorations for my *ahem* older ranting blog that you will not go looking for, and they become too fun not to draw so… there they are.

Oh yeah, the little girl I was talking about, Aryxa? She’s the happy one on the rocks in this drawing. The other one is Paradona. They’re the same girl.

Aryxa : pretty curious, happy and naive

Paradona: a lunatic, emo with a short temper.

I’d started to draw them just as decorations for my *ahem* older ranting blog that you will not go looking for, and they become too fun not to draw so… there they are.

Heyooo

Hi whoever finds their way to this tumblr!

I wanted to create a tumblr for a random amount of reasons. Mainly, becuz it looked like fun, other ppl I knew were making them and i have stuff i want to share but i just don’t know where to put it. So, here I am.

I’m Claire btw - the Scribe of Aryxa. It’s not a place or anything, just something I came up with. An idea. It’s an acronym too : Artificial Reality You eXperience Ad nauseum.

Completely made up.

It’s also the name of the little girl I made up. She’s curious, naive and happy - a metaphor for my own curiosity. Well, my idea of what curiosity is in general, the child inside of you asking questions; which i think people sometimes ignore. 

Anyway, I want to see how this tumblr stuff goes. So… here we go. ^-^